most importantly love like it’s the only thing you know how at the end of the day all this means nothing this page where you’re sitting your degree your job the money nothing even matters except love and human connection who you loved and how deeply you loved them how you touched the people around you and how much you gave them
A friend said to me the other day, “Have you ever heard that saying? ‘If a writer falls in love with you, you can never die.’ Cause, you know, they will always be in their writing, out there in the world forever.”
Nothing ever resonated so deeply, and what a blessing and a curse that is.
Shirt: Victoria Beckham for Target | Shorts: PacSun | Shoes: Forever21 | Bag: Zara
It was 10 AM on the Saturday morning that this Victoria Beckham for Target collection was released and I was running down the aisles of Target with excitement and fury to get all the pieces as quickly as I could – yes, I was that b*tch. I scooped up this button down bee top immediately, along with a few other Alice in Wonderland, Spring themed items. Everything was max $30 – how could you go wrong? My next investment – an iron. Yup, this girl can’t wear half of her closet because of all the wrinkles invading it. So, considering the circumstances, I tied a small front-knot into this bad-boy and gave it a whirl and it looked pretty cute! Always trying new things with new pieces because, why not?
These pictures are up there with some of my favorite pictures I have ever had taken for my blog. I know, the main focus is supposed to be the outfit, but how could it be when the backdrop is that beautiful? Santa Barbara, you never cease to amaze me. And this outfit fitted the occasion perfectly.
These F21 lace up sandals originally had tassels on the ends but it looked cheap (I mean, it is Forever21) so I pulled them off. Of all shorts I own these are my favorite, but unfortunately American Apparel’s online store is down at the moment until their new line comes out, and I got these babies a few years ago. They are the most flattering fitting high-waisted shorts! This shirt I also bought when I was in high school, which was… well, a long time ago. This is the perfect example of why sometimes you should just hold onto some pieces. I haven’t worn it in years but now love it even more than I originally did!
Sad reality – these shoes aren’t the greatest match with this dress. Sadder reality – when you move across the country with your life packed into two suitcases, packing the perfect pair of dress-up shoes isn’t quite on the top of the list. But hey, these Steve Madden babies would look killer with a dress like this… or these, or these, or these… You catch my drift. This has to be by far one of my favorite fitting dresses of all time. As you can see, the seeming on the lines along the hip are coming apart – which is probably why I stole this dress for a whopping 80% off, but regardless – it’s too beautiful (and an easy fix). It’s a bandage dress, so naturally, like all bandages dresses do, it sucks in all the little extra blub you might have laying around and makes you feel firm and tight (I think all of us wouldn’t mind that feeling in a tight dress every once in awhile). The fabric is ultra comfy and the details are all so flattering. I’ve never been able to complain about the fit on any of my dresses from Bebe – they’re magical!
June Gloom is upon us here in Santa Barbara, but that won’t stop my extravagant, summer style! Well, it may come with a sweatshirt in hand, but hey – I’m here to conquer you with my sunshine, gloom! Ain’t nothing stopping me. I have to say though, in all honesty, this skirt isn’t the most comfortable… but, we pay the price to have style (literally and figuratively). Maybe only for a few hours, though, as I’m all about being comfortable – so in a few hours time I was in a pair of leggings, bumming it. I’m also on an intense bra-less kick this 2017. If it’s not totally necessary, it’s not on me. Sorry peeps, free the nip 2017!
Moment of honesty here: I’ve never felt comfortable wearing a crop top if my belly button wasn’t covered. I guess you can say I’m a bit reserved, but something about the air in California gives me such a relaxed confidence. There was no second guessing this outfit, and I’m not sure anyone else even looked twice at my little belly button peaking through. Nothing about it matched yet everything went so well and was crazy comfortable – mostly. I will admit, these sandals for some reason dig mid-sized craters into the tops of my feet. Yes, it’s exactly what it sounds like, it hurts like a b-word. It doesn’t even make sense either, because there’s nothing on that part of the shoe that is sharp enough to leave a literal hole in my foot, but, here I am – band-aid covered and healing. Again – disregard my uncontrollable mane. You’ll be seeing much more of it.
P.s. I figured I would share with you a poem I love from a book I have…
“The metal cold and the glass broken; the wood old and splintered, throwing slivers like quills. Look and see, life explodes despite it. Between broken and the rusted, the shattered and the fractured, life. We are this, always this, and nothing can stop us from finding the light through the rubble. Watch us grow.” – Tyler Knott Gregson, Chasers of the Light
In a not so surprising surprising way, my first week in California went somewhat like how you would daydream it would – but on not so grand of a scale, and that’s only if you consider going to a Kentucky Derby party in a mansion on a hill in Santa Barbara a not majorly intense scale in the grand scheme of all things California. For the little Rhody girl that I am, it was pretty grand. It only took me a few minutes to get rolling around the floor in my dress with a cute puppy, and then in the next hour tucking my dress into a pair of shorts to go trampoline-ing with the kids. Small town girl in a glam world at its finest. Another shocker to many – this gorgeous dress is from Forever 21. Beautiful, am I right? Everything seems to just be much more beautiful here in Santa Barbara. I’m pretty content with it, to say the least. I’ve managed to wear this Ettika choker with just about every outfit. I can glam it up, for instance with this dress or wear it with a beachy look. the possibilities are endless!
p.s. – It’s official, my hair is out of control. I’ve just come to embrace it!